Wednesday, January 7, 2009

The Wind...

I am feeling restless today...and in a very bad mood for no apparent reason...


I got home late last night and went to be about 12:30 only to be woken up at 1:30 with an overwhelming sense of dread and Carter mrowing most pitifully...so I got up to investigate and then was almost paralyzed with fear that there was someone in the house, but I found Carter and gave him a little bit of food and went back to sleep but I had weird crazy discombobulated dreams the rest of the night...


This morning felt anti-productive, that's right not just un, but ANTI productive.  It's like I went backwards, and the fact that I have 19.99 in my checking account and I don't get paid until the 15th and all my bills are due on the 13th is driving me CRAZY!!! I need more work....I have a lot of stuff out in the future that is coming up, but nothing RIGHT NOW...which is frustrating and I couldn't stop thinking about it all day today.....


At least I had rehearsal with the Munchkins which helped take my mind off things, except now I'm afraid that now that I am writing about it I'll start thinking about it again....but I get to see Kalin tonight which will make me happy [provided he's not being poopy!]


I think these feelings and nightmares can be largely contributed to the ABRUPT change in weather-the wind is stirring everything up on the Physical AND Spiritual plane which I know sounds like New Age hoo ha, but I really feel that at least for me a lot of how I feel about life is connected with my environment....


I also think I need to practice social interaction after prolonged periods by myself...


The End.


1 comment:

"Everything's Just Smooty" said...

You can always practice social interaction with me... even if, the last time we talked, I was reassembling a typewriter and more narrating than conversing.

I found a great book you might like, but I'm going to make you call me for details. Except not tonight because I plan on going home at 6:30 and crawling into bed for 12 hours.